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dear mom,

Posted in a series of unfortunate events, acts of nature, bewilderness, changes, crossing over, growth & change, heartache, herself, inner peace, love, mindphuck, my inner child, shades of grey, silence, the blues, the burdens of being upright, the darkness on May 13, 2013 by whyvonne

yesterday was Mother’s Day; tomorrow would have been your 75th birthday.

I stood at your gravesite yesterday, and marveled at how lost I felt.

you’ve only been Gone From Me for 122 days. not that I’m counting…but it seems a marker…a placeholder in my life, to gauge the passage of time.

mine is a Complicated Grief, they tell me…since ours was a Complicated Relationship. when you Crossed Over, any hope of us ever having a true, nurturing relationship, died with you.

I keep trying to remind myself that yours was not an easy life…in part because you suffered through so many tragedies at so young an age: with John dying, then baby Shawn, and your father, all within 2 years of each other. such a huge series of losses…and I believe you were only 27. also in part because you chose such an unhappy path, and many unhealthy life choices. it is not my place to judge you, but you HAVE TO KNOW that I was always THAT GIRL, standing, stuck, in the greeting card aisle year after year on Mother’s Day…at a loss since Hallmark didn’t produce cards that spoke my truth.

life is complicated, and messy, and God knows all that and loves us anyway. I am sad that you never sought professional grief counseling after your Trinity of Loss. I am angry that you sought solace in drink, and couldn’t see the pain and devastation you wrought. I am bereft that you couldn’t be the Mother that I needed….ever.

but today, I am just crestfallen that this little girl doesn’t have her Mama anymore.

love, and peace,
yvonne elizabeth

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Mother’s Day 2013

Posted in a series of unfortunate events, acts of nature, bewilderness, changes, crossing over, growth & change, heartache, inner peace, love, mindphuck, my inner child, silence, the burdens of being upright, the darkness on May 12, 2013 by whyvonne

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122 days since you left.

I’m writing you a letter now.

I love you.

your little girl,
yvonne

a frosty july treat

Posted in acts of nature, art, chemistry, humble and grateful, science & nature, stirring of the soul on July 8, 2008 by whyvonne

 

Icebergs in the Antarctic area sometimes have stripes, formed by layers of snow that react to different conditions.
 
Blue stripes are often created when a crevice in the ice sheet fills up with meltwater and freezes so quickly that no bubbles form.

When an iceberg falls into the sea, a layer of salty seawater can freeze to the underside. If this is rich in algae, it can form a green stripe.

 Brown, black and yellow lines are caused by sediment, picked up when the ice sheet grinds downhill towards the sea.”

thanQ for this set of photos and blurb to my babybrother ed, who is finishing up his 2nd year as a med student at the american university of the caribbean…and will soon be close by as he begins his residency in new yawk!

mother nature never ever fails to amaze and astound me, as do all the wonders of the incredible physiology of the human body. i am all at once humbled, overcome and in breathless awe…

isn’t life delicious?

bewilderness

Posted in acts of nature, art, bewilderness, grateful, growth & change, heartache, herself, humble and grateful, in the summertime, inner peace, love, science & nature, stirring of the soul, the burdens of being upright, trust, Uncategorized on June 11, 2008 by whyvonne

 

 

a single rose
reveals itself today
in the twilight

confused by this early
humid, heavy heat…
beautiful and fragrant,
perfect in its loneliness

not unlike the girl
tiny, wandering
in the vast bewilderness,
the ambiguous landscape
of an ill-defined union

a tear trickles slowly down
her cheek
and she turns her loving
grateful gaze upwards…

as the word
hope
forms in her heart.

carpe diem

Posted in acts of nature, art, carpe diem!, grateful, growth & change, humble and grateful, in the summertime, inner peace, my inner child, nurturing, science & nature, stirring of the soul, Uncategorized on May 16, 2008 by whyvonne

seize the day…

…and let the day seize you!

image copyright 2008 ~ y.e.a.

ascent and descent

Posted in acts of nature, bewilderness, carpe diem!, changes, chemistry, fact or fiction?, grateful, growth & change, herself, humble and grateful, inner peace, love, my inner child, nurturing, science & nature, shades of grey, silence, stirring of the soul, trust, Uncategorized on April 25, 2008 by whyvonne

sitting side by side on the picnic table, in the clearing near the parking area at the base of the mountain, they shared an organic brew that boasted one of his photographs. the landscape image that had been “flopped, cropped and photoshopped” dominated the label.

she was at once proud of him, and perhaps just a little jealous.

her attempt at under-apologizing was futile; she knew in her heart of hearts that this hike was more than just a little ambitious for her. her frequent stops to catch her breath and slow her heart thudding maddeningly in her chest didn’t seem to bother him…he had even taken her pack from her partway up the mountain to make it easier for her.

as they sat together, recovering, in a companionable silence, he announced that he had planned on saving this particular bottle for a special occasion – and this was it.

she was at a loss for words.

abruptly, she confessed:
“i never intended to re-appear; my only intention was to disappear.”
with that she excused herself and walked to the far side of the clearing, hearing him say,
“…and then she disappeared again…”

she chuckled inwardly. she adored his sense of humor, even though the subject matter wasn’t at all funny. as if her words could even touch on an explanation of why she had been in absentia for six weeks.

what had caught her eye across the lawn was several piles of snow; such an odd sight on this unseasonably hot day! she reached the snow, and bending down, scooped up a handful, smiling as she shaped it into a snowball. it was the perfect consistency! she turned and walked back toward him, feeling the gritty ice already beginning to melt in her hands. when she reached him, her hands were icy cold and dripping; she tenderly touched his sunburned arms with her wet cold hands, loving the contrast of it…her cold hands on his hot skin…then she gently bathed his neck, his ears…

 

 

science

Posted in acts of nature, just phucking funny, science & nature on October 26, 2007 by whyvonne

…ok, so i ‘ve been absent. there’s just not a whole lot going on that has inspired me to write lately….i am living vicariously through ~m’s posts, which are overly-abundant as of late. {woo-hoo! lucky for us…}
* here’s hoping that something will hit me over the head soon {“dawn breaks over marble head”} and some blog-worthy prose will rear it’s GAWGEOUS head. in the meanwhile, here’s a smile for ye….

A beautiful woman loved growing tomatoes,tomato.jpg
but couldn’t seem to get her tomatoes to turn red.

One day, while taking a stroll, she came upon a gentleman neighbor
who had the most beautiful garden full of huge red tomatoes.

The woman asked the gentleman,
“What do you do to get your tomatoes so red?”
He responded, “Well, twice a day I stand in front of my tomato garden
naked in my trenchcoat, and flash them.
My tomatoes turn red from blushing so much!”

Well, the woman was so impressed, she decided to try doing the same thing
to her tomato garden to see if it would work. So, twice a day, for two weeks,
she flashed her garden, hoping for the best.

One day the gentleman was passing by and asked the woman,
“By the way, how did you make out? Did your tomatoes turn red?”

“No,” she replied, “but my cucumbers are enormous.”

today’s chuckle courtesy of my seester, shee-von,
of the Pueblo Sheevons.

{also home of the colorado rockies, but….
we won’t go down THAT road today…LOL}